Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Just write.

Last night I was telling Mr S. I had the most incredible writers block ever. Well, why not write about Jeff - He said. Or the crappy time we had getting new cell phones.

Mr S. - I have plenty of things to write about - I just can't get them out. Snarkolepsy, He says - sometimes the only way to cure writers block, is to write.

I think one of my problems is that once people start disappearing I start getting agitated. It really makes me panicky.

The recession is really a little like walking out onto a frozen lake on a sunny day. You know at some point you are going to fall through. And, no matter how well you pick your steps - you still feel like you may never make it to the other side. Each day you make it, but you know that tomorrow you have to walk the lake again, and people are constantly punching holes in the ice.

As much as I try to enjoy the stuff I'm doing, you can't escape the feeling of danger.

Take for instance last week. I had to take the Chrysler in for a new tire. The place was empty, and the guy working the place started giving me the soft glove treatment. Most people might have thought "hey, look at that, I have the power now". For me.. it made a shiver run down my spine. Not that I don't enjoy the better treatment. Yet, when repair shops are fighting for your business - it's just something that is noticeable.

I've been going to this place off and on the whole time I've lived in this city. While they care about customer support, the vibe was completely different.

Then, the freeways the past two weekends have been completely empty. This is last weekend going through Oakland at 6:00pm.

This was on 280 in Sunnyvale around noon this weekend. At those times both of those freeways should be pretty busy.

This is just something that is filling my head with a lot of static right now, and making it hard for me to write.


  1. I can relate. My writer's block is partly due to just being too busy studying and not having enough brain cells left over to write something halfway coherent. The bigger part of it, however, is that feeling of being on very thin ice and watching all those holes being punched in it every day (brilliant analogy!) that continually wants to suck all the life out of me.

    We just gotta keep on keepin' on, I guess.

  2. Yeah. It pretty much sucks for everyone. I never would have imagined this whole thing would go on this long.

  3. Keyser - It isn't really though. Is it? It's hours of your life.